My mind’s little blurbs on a drive.
I’m home. oh, its so good to be here, I just may never leave! okay, that’s a lie…but I considered it for a few minutes…especially after I walked in my little dungeon room tonight. mmm there is NO place like home.
It was a long drive back today, however. I had three delightful companions but unfortunately for me a 7 hour car ride gets long so half the time they were asleep! so i had a long time to think about many things. One of them was time. time is going so fast. its already halfway through the semester! I was thinking back over the past couple years of my life and all the different things that have happened and how each circumstance was designed perfectly by God for my good. Of course, I didn’t see that purpose in mind within many of those circumstances, but I can look back now and say that I am a stronger woman in Christ because of those things. How faithful is our God…
another thing I was thinking about was relationships. Every time I come home it seems like 23987283 people want to hang out…yeah okay, i don’t have that many friends, but work with me here. On breaks like this one, where time is short, I don’t really want to be around a lot of people. I’m around people all the time at school…honestly, I just want to “be”. Now of course there are people that I REALLY want to see and if I get the opportunity to spend a little chunk of time with them, I’d love it. but if I didn’t, I’d be happy just the same. however, this makes me feel like a bad friend…because it seems like I don’t want to spend time with people. I do, its just that…well, I don’t. at least not now. paradox…
and then something that I thought about a teeny bit during my drive but has come up again tonight as I’ve been listening to an amazing song is the shortness of life. My time is but a breath. who knows when my last moments will be here on this earth. what am I choosing to do with this one life that I have? honestly, I feel like I waste so much of my time on worthless things. I’m loving this song called “stand up” by a singer named Jordan Anderson (the older bro of one of my friends…check him out- myspace.com/jandersonmusic) he says, “Time it goes by like the wind, what once was a passion is now a reaction, so can you explain how your life got rearranged? are you living in fear? or does the world hold you dear? hink about your life and all its brevity, are you gonna stand up? are you gonna take the blow and man up, when they’re coming at you low? You’ve got to stand up, you know that you can’t back down, don’t move an inch even when its pouring down. what are you saving your life for?”
What am I saving my life for? something to think about…I desire to be used by God in whatever capacity He chooses, WHENEVER he chooses. this life is not my own…hum. something to ponder over these next few days.
on that note, goodnight from my beloved room. It was nice blogging again.
